Not So Much

I have always grown up as a Christian. You would think that I would know God like the back of my hand, right? Not so much. I know it is a privilege to grow up immersed in Christianity but it is also a challenge. The biggest stumbling block I have run into is pride. I fall into the trap where I think that I know everything I will ever need to. And then the four-hundred ton of bricks, that is reality, kindly hits me like a freight train. Then Yahweh shows me that when I break, He doesn't. I've doubted Yahweh before . . . and I felt like life wasn't worth living when I did. Then He showed me that it is, and I am filled with joy. I've argued with Yahweh over thunder before . . . and then He brought me to tears. He showed me that even when I doubt Him, He's there. Even when I hate His plan, He keeps me from careening down my path of destruction. I've learned that no matter what, God. Is. Here. His plan puts my plan in the desert without any water. His plan is the Truth. And you know what? The Truth will set you free.

~TDH